Sun Of a Bitch

I had to deal with low or no budget several times while working as a production manager on student movies. And I managed just fine every time! BUT when it comes to real life, I can't help but end up totally broke every month, right before getting financial shot to the account either from parents, or my school. I feel like a looser and I hate it. Except the occasional production and assistance at my university I have no job, but I keep telling myself "It's ok, you're a student." So what?
Being a student = being poor, unless you have wealthy parents that are willing to take care of you or you found a way to make your studies and part time job work together.
I am a screenwriting major. I could get a job as one of the many writers who do TV-series. I haven't tried yet. Lack of self-confidence. Lack of will to live on. Fear from being pre-occupied at work and thus neglecting my studies. You know what? It's all just one big bullshit.
The fact is: you can survive with much less things than you'd have courage to even imagine. You can eat less. You can start cooking at home and stop eating out. You can stop smoking and going out, drink alcohol, buying books and video games, shopping for clothes every month at least twice or three times (or how often do people actually shop for clothes?! I have NO IDEA.). You can even put together an eco friendly home out of garbage and live happily ever after. Ever heard of an Eartship? If you don't want to be dependant on a companies, that sell electricity, water and gas and wanna have a sustainable home, I feel like this one is worth trying.
To the food question:
If there is a crisis, why the losing-the-weight bussiness is one of the most succesful ones in the world? I don't mean to criticise obese people - I mean people who are actually sick and being obese is just part of their sickness. I mean to criticise people who do actually have very bad eating habits, which make them gain weight and become FAT.
Not that our bodies work the way they should anyways.
I live in a city and when I get close to the nature, my body freaks out, imunne system overeacts to thing as stupid and ordinary as pollen and I get a terrible allergy. This started after I had my pharyngeal tonsils taken out. I was five or six and my doctor said to my parents it has to be done. I suppose it really had to be done, otherwise that stupid medical concern that has been feeding me their medications for all those years simply wouldn't survive. Do you also think conspiracy theories are fun? Go make sure you still have your tonsils on the right place first.
Aloha for 2nite.